a gift to bring you

you have no idea how hard i’ve looked for a gift to bring you. nothing seemed right. what’s the point…

explain the darkness to me.

it’s dark because you are trying too hard. »» lightly child, »» lightly. learn to do everything »» l i g h t…

faq.

i want to ask the happiest person in the world whether it was worth it, all the sacrifices he made…

drink her.

she was the third beer. i. not the first one, which the throat receives with almost tearful gratitude; ii. nor…

too far west

|| new categories: the sympathy of things how to think by jumping too far east is west never wait for…

deserving.

it sounded old— “deserve.” (old-and-tired-and-beaten-to-death). deserve. —now: it seemed to him that  he-was-always-saying-or-thinking   that  he-didn’t-deserve-some-bad-luck-or-some-bad-treatment   from others. (he’d told Guitar that…

let me be

“dear god,” she prayed, “let me be something every minute of every hour of my life. let me be gay;…

wrestle it to the ground

“closeness,” he said, surveying the congregation. “it’s easy to be close, but almost impossible to stay close. think about friends.…

men into blocks

if you take a flat map and move wooden blocks upon it strategically, the thing looks well, the blocks behave…

over(flow)

permit yourself to flow and overflow.

beauty & spells.

she was fascinated with [words] to her, [words] were things of beauty,

faded.

inner beauty can fade, too

surviving

only a fire can teach you what survives a fire. no— it teaches you what can survive that fire. :: sarah manguso…

conjure images

before they had kids, if asked to conjure images of parenthood they would have said things like “reading in bed,”…

the shape of distance

between any two beings there is a unique, uncrossable distance, an impenetrable sanctuary. sometimes it takes the shape of aloneness.…

each other’s pain

in sickness and in sickness. that is what i wish for you. don’t seek or expect miracles. there are no…

true mirrors.

some of us are surrounded by destructive people who tell us: we’re worthless when we’re endlessly valuable, that we’re stupid…

blue elephants

when you’re a kid, you color with reckless abandon.  // you color outside the lines. // you color however you…

utopia

island where all becomes clear. solid ground beneath your feet. the only roads are those that offer access. bushes bend…