a gift to bring you

you have no idea how hard i’ve looked for a gift to bring you. nothing seemed right. what’s the point … More

faq.

i want to ask the happiest person in the world whether it was worth it, all the sacrifices he made … More

drink her.

she was the third beer. i. not the first one, which the throat receives with almost tearful gratitude; ii. nor … More

too far west

|| new categories: the sympathy of things how to think by jumping too far east is west never wait for … More

deserving.

it sounded old— “deserve.” (old-and-tired-and-beaten-to-death). deserve. —now: it seemed to him that  he-was-always-saying-or-thinking   that  he-didn’t-deserve-some-bad-luck-or-some-bad-treatment   from others. (he’d told Guitar that … More

let me be

“dear god,” she prayed, “let me be something every minute of every hour of my life. let me be gay; … More

wrestle it to the ground

“closeness,” he said, surveying the congregation. “it’s easy to be close, but almost impossible to stay close. think about friends. … More

men into blocks

if you take a flat map and move wooden blocks upon it strategically, the thing looks well, the blocks behave … More

over(flow)

permit yourself to flow and overflow.

beauty & spells.

she was fascinated with [words] to her, [words] were things of beauty,

faded.

inner beauty can fade, too

surviving

only a fire can teach you what survives a fire. no— it teaches you what can survive that fire. :: sarah manguso … More

conjure images

before they had kids, if asked to conjure images of parenthood they would have said things like “reading in bed,” … More

the shape of distance

between any two beings there is a unique, uncrossable distance, an impenetrable sanctuary. sometimes it takes the shape of aloneness. … More

each other’s pain

in sickness and in sickness. that is what i wish for you. don’t seek or expect miracles. there are no … More

true mirrors.

some of us are surrounded by destructive people who tell us: we’re worthless when we’re endlessly valuable, that we’re stupid … More

blue elephants

when you’re a kid, you color with reckless abandon.  // you color outside the lines. // you color however you … More

utopia

island where all becomes clear. solid ground beneath your feet. the only roads are those that offer access. bushes bend … More