let me be

“dear god,” she prayed,

“let me be something every minute of every hour of my life.

let me be gay;
let me be sad.
let me be cold;
let me be warm.
let me be hungry
have too much to eat. let me be

wrestle it to the ground

closeness,” he said,

surveying the congregation.

“it’s easy to be close,
but almost impossible to stay close.

think about friends.
think about hobbies.
even ideas.

they’re close to us—
sometimes so close we think they are part of us

and then,

at some point,

they aren’t close anymore.

they go away.

// only one thing can keep something close over time:

holding it there.
grappling with it.
wrestling it to the ground (as jacob did with the angel,)
and refusing to let go.

what we don’t wrestle
we let go of……

love isn’t the absence of struggle.

love is struggle.

:: jonathan safran foer

here i am

girls doing.

and always think of other people

correspondence between hemingway and a young writer (“mice”)

mice: how can a writer train himself?

hemingway: watch what happens today. if we get into a fish see exactly what it is that everyone does. if you get a kick out of it while he is jumping remember back until you see exactly what the action was that gave you the emotion. whether it was the rising of the line from the water and the way it tightened like a fiddle string until drops started from it, or the way he smashed and threw water when he jumped. remember what the noises were and what was said. find what gave you the emotion; what action was that gave you the excitement. then write it down making it clear so the reader will see it too and have the same feeling that you had. that’s a five finger exercise.

mice: all right.

hemingway: then get in somebody else’s head for a change. if i bawl you out try to figure what i’m thinking about as well as how you feel about it. if carlos cures juan think what both their sides of it are. don’t just think who is right. as a man things are as they should or shouldn’t be. as a man you know who is right and who is wrong. you have to make decisions and enforce them. as a writer you should not judge. you should understand. and always think of other people